"Why, sometimes I've believed as many as six impossible things before breakfast" ~Lewis Carroll
You should never underestimate the inopportune and wildly impossible scenarios your heart may create. Love is a curse without a cure. Hindered by distance, pain, hurt, guilt, regret, mistakes and unfortunate circumstances. I won't lie, it comes with some of the finest of moments and the happiest of times, but those are always balanced by the hardest of decisions and most inconvenient timings. Just when you think you have it all figured out, there is something to shove that back in your face...
If you knew that there was someone on the opposite side of the world who cared about you, who might have a crush on you, who thinks you are a pretty amazing person...would you take that journey, and risk everything? What if you spoke to him for hours and hours on skype and facebook...so much so you were picking up each others typing habits? What if he told you things would be different if you had the same postcode?
These feelings do crazy things with your mind. I mean, couldn't fate set you up with someone that was at LEAST in the same country? I have come to the conclusion that love is supposed to be irrational and crazy and spontaneous and totally out of this world. Challenging is an understatement...
Love knows no distance. If you are meant to be, fate is somehow going to put you there. Maybe you were meant to meet that person right when you did. Maybe every tweet you ever posted, every band you ever followed, every song you listened to, every night you stayed up late, every little step that got you where you are was meant to be that way. Love comes in, wisps you away into a world where nothing else matters. The hour train rides blends into a blur of constant thoughts. Your heart beats faster as you pull into the driveway knowing he may be online. You spend hours refreshing the page in case he replies or checking your phone in the middle of the night. Yet, not even the impossibility of actually seeing this person can deter you from feeling the way you do.
Eventually you've got to notice that reality has to step in at some point. This beautiful thing you have with the person across the other side of the world is impossible. You can visit them, yeah, but you need money. And even if you manage that, you can't stay there. The pain of impossibility, the horrible thought of reality and the endless reasons why it won't work will eventually tear you apart until it becomes unbearable.
Life does these terrible things. Dont fall in love, there is too much to lose. Fate tests how far you are willing to go to find happiness. Many of us fail at the epic love story...and rather settle with the tragic "one that got away" ending. Mostly because it hurts too much to bear for too long and oftentimes love is just beautifully impossible. ♥
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